hay grabe... its been a while since i posted here... alam nyo naman, 6 days and 6 nights ako sa hospital para bantayan ang mom and sis ko... Post lap-chole and UTI ang cases nila and sa sobrang daming nagpapaconfine because of suspected case of dengue, umabot sa 60 ang waiting sa room so we have no choice but to combine them in one room. oki na rin yun because at least 1 room lng ang 2 babantayan hehe... pero grabe, nag-iba ang body clock ko... I slept 2 am in the morning and woke up every hour because of due meds etc.

At the afternoon of confinement, shocking news... I just weighed 100 lbs! Wha! I can't believe it... even the nurse saw it. Nakakatawa, sa sobrang stress at kakatulog till late afternoon, (tnx to maanne's advice) I lost that much, around 25-30 lbs! Haha

Ayun nga pero after the confinement e i gained ulit, kasi naman, ang daming food tapus dahil nasira ang diet regimen ko, I have no choice but eat kasi pinagagalitan na ko ng mom ko! Bwahaha...

Ayun, just got my PC back last saturday night because na-virus itong PC kaka-DL sa limewire! Haha... So need to have a new anti-spyware talaga.

On Expectations...
Flor and I had a discusion regarding expections... People and Situations

That qoute got me and made me think a lot of things in my life... Siguro this is one of the things that's bugging me, maybe I expect too much, that's why I get disappointed that much... Ayun, maybe high expectations on people and the things that will happen next... kaya ayun, with a failure expectation goes my disappointments on those things... And this perhaps made me re-consider about my perception on people and situations...

This morning, Tupe and I had a debate regarding expectations... And because I just had a good conversation last night with Flor regarding this issue, e I also shared it to him... Haha... Sana lang nag-sink in kasi bigla na lang sinabi na: 'ge lalakad muna ako... Haha

Ayun nga, that's its oki if you're aiming for something, but aiming high in a realistic sense. Yung tipong SMART like ng NCP. You can give you're best shot but its better not to expect that you'll have all the desired results because life has imperfections and so, there maybe some deviations with what was expected. If there is, at least less disappoinment on your part... Look at the bright side, there's a reason for everything that's happening... Imperfections makes the world exciting and worth living for... If it wasn't for these, walang challenge and life, we could not have appreciated life better. If life is perfect, we can't determine right from wrong, there would be no recognition of happiness and suffering so ayun...

Not expecting is not comparable to not exerting effort or giving the 100%, its just that you will do something ackowledging that there may be deviations but still the aim is there, the will power is there to achieve a certain goal, its like possesing a PLAN B in everything... Doing the OPTIMUM capacity... 'di tulad sa "The Devil Wears Prada" that the designer is a perfectionist that sometimes, she tend to forget that people do have limitations...

Sabi nga ni Anne Hathaway: "For her, there's no PLAN B."

Ayun lng naman...