doodles and scribbles
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
shopping therapyThe tension rgarding the board exam is getting worse... Its like too personal and the pressure it brings is so intense that sometimes, my head just wants to pop-out like a cola that's being opened and then suddenly, the carbonic acid is released hehe... its like that
There were hearings regarding the case in the congress as well as the senate but for now, I absent myself with the advise of my mom, and also to loose some stress, kasi anytime now, I could pop-up.
So what I did was to go to Baclaran to attend mass and went to 168 for a shopping therapy, to tone down the stress I'm feeling... At least some diversinal activity for the mean time or else, I would crazy na...
The place is neat, cool and conducive for strolling... ayun lang... masaya kahit papano. :P coz I saw a lot of clothes etc. I only bought some pero I'll be back, that's for sure hehe...
just went to sheri's blog at naaliw ako na nadiscover ko:
nakakatawa lang... morenang chinita ako! bwahaha. oi hindi ako ang naglagay nyan, yan lang ung minatch sa site kitams... nakaka-aliw lang hehe
Monday, August 28, 2006
gaining and loosingQue horror!
What is happening to us?! These past few days e medyo hectic ang schedule ko kaya nakakapagod... Pero those things I'm doing is for a cause naman... Nakakapagod nga lang kasi halos buong araw kang nakasabak...
Gaining my self-worth
Even though the fight regarding the leakage is going to quantity, na its like UST against the world, I happy that I am developing a discerning mind sabi ni Ma'am Llanes. It seems that everything that I've learned regarding ethics and theology were inculcated in my mind na... Pero sana, those people sana e will see beyond what they need to see... the Philippines indeed has not the "ideal" set-up for healthcare in comparison with other countries pero sana we make try to make it "ideal" in our own ways... Some people are mad at us Thomasian for the things we're doing pero I hope that they'll hear our side first at look beyond what they see and hear...
Loosing some weight
Because of the things happening in the profession, I am somewhat depressed with some people, na its like their values are degrading... Its different from the things I saw when I'm still a student, and i reckoned, this is reality. And because of the activities I have, I can't help but to stay on bed the whole day when I'm not doing something... What I'm doing is to sleep most of the time as not to think of the problems... Its causing me a lot of stress and it affects my mood... Kaya ayun, kakatulog e pamapayat because, by sleeping a lot, I'm not eating meals as well as burining stored fats in my body kaya ayun...
Loosing people
Sad to say but I have to let go of some friends for the meantime for several reasons...
1. Conflict of opinions - This is whats irritating with them because they will ask for advise then if you give it to them, they won't follow it, its oki naman if they won't follow it pero they keep on complaining about things... How many times do I told them to try this advise, but they kept on refusing. the worst part is that, this opinion maybe used against you and then you'll end up starting a heated arguement with them... It's so frustrating! Another thing is that opposing opinions regarding issues etc. They kept on blaming my school for the mess thats happening in the contriversy of the boards well in fact we're just opening to the public the issues they must see... Its oki naman kung civil e pero to some extent e personalan na kaya, Ayun, heated arguement... Might as well avoid having conversations with them para walang gulo.
2. Lack of Trust - I prefer not to be friends with them because they always have doubts with my suggestions and my credibility as their friend. And trust is an essential compnent in friendship. When trust is lost, all the others will follow
Kaya bye bye muna sakanila... Maybe I have to give up on them muna kasi they're not doing any good sa totoo lang... They're just adding an unecessary burden.
Ayun lang naman :)
Saturday, August 19, 2006
>sad but truei'm very sad because of what is happening in the profession I chose to take... a lot of things are happening and it is creating an environment in which usage of ethical principles is needed...
Upon hearing the news that there were Thomasian who took oath, I felt dissapointed because some of them, I presonally know, I have talked to them a lot on the reasons why the college is fighting for this cause, but somehow, their minds are already close regarding these issues or they just wish to hear nothing, and pretend that they see nothing...
According to ma'am llanes, when you decided to take oath, it's like your accepting the 2 counts of cheating they did. First, that we don't have a leakage. Second, regarding the manner in which the grade were computed.
There is no glaring leakage but on the contrary, there is... Those who are pretending that they see and hear nothing are very ovious in the manner on how they handled the situation... So sad but true that the things thought in school were already forgotten by some of us and some were even proud of it... So sad...
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
>?5 secs of fameyak ha... grabe... ang pangit ko sa TV, ung bulol na part pa yung kinuha! WHA! nation of cheats, tama yung grammar na yun because I have heard it from a prof na sinabi ni Biazon sa senate... O ha!
Basta I looked pale there, basang sisiw etc... SABOG! dahil sa lakas ng ulan... Bwahaha
Monday, August 14, 2006
>sorryHay...
I missed barkada...
Sorry kung di ako nagpaparamdam ngayon... We're in a mess right now kahit alam nyo na ang fact dahil you have seen it sa mga broadsheets and internet... Ayun, isa itong issue which involves our future na kahit PASSED e mas complicated pa ang life compare to those who luckily/unluckily who didn't make it kasi nga our license would be in question dahil sa leakage kahit honest... you know, the stigma...
Soon after this problem e magpaparamdam na ulit ako... Mahirap lang kasi dahil madaming iniisip at ayoko na na madamay kayo with these matters... dahil i know that you also have concerns of your own and this issue is something which has a big impact kaya it's better na hindi na kayo sumama dahil pati kayo magugulo lang... the situation is VERY COMPLICATED na pati kami ganun na ang na-feel.
Alam kong tampo kayo pero konting patience and understanding lang po. I know that we're friends through thick and thin at ang dami na nating napagdaanan pero siyempre, pero dapat ko ding i-consider ang position and feelings ng iba :) sana understand nyo na lang po :) Kaya kung mangungulit kayo e ini-ignore muna namin kayo kasi nga ito ang nagyayari. Kung may isang bagay kayong ma-o-offer, that is your prayers that all of these things would end with justice...
Miss you all! Ang Please Pray for us... Yun na lang mahihiling ko senyo!
TNX!
Sunday, August 13, 2006
>valuesThe leakage issue is very frustrating. And the PRC is wrong in publishing the results of the exam with pending investigation. They really did it on purpose, it is their tactic to divide the nursing community to cover-up the leakage issue and to silence the crowd. Of course, if you know that you passed, you won't complain regarding the issue. And I can say that they are very succesful in it.
Now that our fight against the Nursing Leakage is going on, I can't help but to feel sad with our situation especially with our fellow Thomasians whom we thought will go with us in this fight. I must say that I am some what dissapointed with some people who doesn't really care about the situation only because they passed. There are some who even namemersonal just because our stand is for retake.
I understand the concern of other students who are not joining our cause, that is because of their work and other personal reasons. Some because of time constraint and distance as well as financial reasons that's why they prefered not to retake. So sad that there are those who are not alarmed on this issue even though they aren't facing these situations: fiancial, personal problems etc. What's even worst e inaaway ka pa. And they will think of you as an idealist etc. Well, what's the purpose of ideals if it won't be put into use. Respeto na lang sa bawat isa.
Why did I choose to join this cause? To join in proposition of a retake? These are my reasons:
1. This issue concerns my profession, my license. And these two are the fruits of my labor after 4 years of studying, hardwork, time and effort. I don't want that all of the things I have done to achieve my goal will be put into waste just because of leakage issues, so I'm fighting for it.
2. Its about values and to stick with those I've learned. My parents reared me up to be independent and outspoken. They thought me to fight for what is right. Same goes with my Alma Mater, UST. It thought me to stick with the truth - Veritate et Caritate. And I know that what I'm doing today is the application of what my parents and mentors have thought me.
"I am a steward of my profession, and as a steward,I have the duty and responsibility to take care of my profession."
3. This is a good time to stand up and make a difference. As an ordinary citizen, this situation rarely happens and a good opportunity to fight for what I believe in and to make a difference in this world. At least when I grow old, I won't regret that time but instead will be proud that I DID make a DIFFERENCE in this world.
4. I want to be treated fairly. It hurts me when passers are discriminated because of the leakage even though I knew that I am honest with the boards. I want that when my time will come in applying for a job, the leakage issue won't affect my employment status. I want my license to be clean of doubt. And doubt ragarding my competence won't be an issue to those people who will hire me and that those whom will I care for. Trust is essential in caring for a patient.
5.Technically, if we would follow the provision in the law: RA 9173 or the Nursing Act of 2002,
Nullifying Tests 3 and Tests 5 would violate this section because each subject is essential part of the whole exam. That's why we have 5 sets of exams with 100 items each. Therefore 380 items is not as good as the 500 items exam. Because the competence of the nurses in that nullified area would not be measured. And the action of "toning down" the grades to "tone down the leakage" is not a good reason to come up with a grade in test 5. If a certain part of the test is nullfied, it is a good as having a grade of 0%. And putting a grade derived from the other tests doesn't really reflect what it is suppose to reflect. So how can you say that you pass when in reality, a part is missing. Its like that we are SRNs - Statistically Registered Nurses. We only passed because the modified formula used to tone down the leakage favors us to pass. How about the others?Section 15. Ratings. - In order to pass the examination, an examinee must obtain a general average of at least seventy-five percent (75%) with a rating of not below sixty percent (60%) in any subject. An examinee who obtains an average rating of seventy-five percent (75%) or higher but gets a rating below sixty percent (60%) in any subject must take the examination again but only in the subject or subjects where he/she is rated below sixty percent (60%). In order to pass the succeeding examination, an examinee must obtain a rating of at least seventy-five percent (75%) in the subject or subjects repeated.
6. How sure we are we that all the 17,000+ who passed really deserve to pass? That they are really honest, meaning there's no leakage? What if these UNWORTHY PASSERS did something and the victims of their malpractice would be my family? And that they caused death or life long injury to them? I cannot afford that to happen.
These are some reasons why I wanted a retake.
I can't afford that in the future, I will regret the time I have the chance to fight for what is right, for what I believe is right and just.
August 11, 2006 - After 2 years, another gofish reunion. I really missed them since its been so long since I went out with them. 2 years... Parang kelan lang... Grabe... I'm late as usual pero naman I travelled all the way from UST to RP Manila. There's an important meeting/forum regarding the Nursing Leakage that I have to attend pa... And the Forum started at past 1pm kaya late na din natapus.
Kay is here and she'll leaving for states on friday kaya I really have to go there and meet them. Minsan ko na lang siya makikita e.At chaka ilang beses na ko hindi nakakasama sa gimik kaya kelangang sumama. Batang allergikin ako kaya bawal muna sa bar.
Sayang nga lang kasi yung iba hindi ko na naabutan. Pero frustrating lang ang mga hindi pumunta even though wala namn silang lakad... yung mga tinatamad sumama.
Nakakatuwa ang reunion. Picture galore ulit at kwentuhan at asaran to the max. Nakakamiss nga e kaya panandalian kong nakalimutan ang tension sa leakage pero even though the topic was brought up, hindi cya ganun ka-tension unlike you're defending your side to some people who won't respect your decision to support retake.
Ayun nga masaya. Ice monster and shakeys... Nakakabusog at in fairness 100 lang ang gastos! Mura na yun for a gimik. Sabagay hindi naman me sumama sa bar pero its oki, I will have my moment din but it isn't yesterday...
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
people places and thingsA lot of thoughts are running into my mind...
Stress is bringing about a lot of things manifested by my body... An appropriate nursing diagnosis is : Alteration in comfort, pain related to presence of multiple mouth sores secondary to stress. Stress in all aspects increases my anxiety level and decreases my immune function...
Stress sa college friends...
I'm start to get frustrated with certain people whom I greatly extended my patience... Sila pa yung madalas kong kasama pero it seems na mali pala ako ng pagkakakilala... Kapag kelangan ka, chaka ka lang naaalala pero kapag walang problema, parang ibinasura ka lang sa tabi...pupulutin ka lang kapag may problema ulit...
Kung sino pa sa una ang hindi mo friends, not in good terms, which eventually became friends, sila pa ang nanjan everytime, nagpaparamdam kahit walang problema... Yun tipong every now and then e present... Nakakalungkot lang isipin na yung mga hindi mo close before sila pa ang nag-tetreasure ng friendship mo compared sa mga ilan tao na kasama ko parati, tapus biglang nawala sa ERE...
Ibang iba talaga compared sa h.s friends... even though I don't wanna compare e parang ganun na nga kasi ang H.S. friends, kahit malayo kayo e, nanjan pa din through thinck and then, may kelangan o wala nanjan pa din...
Stress sa Boards...
I'm so pissed off with what's happening with the board exams... Hindi ako maka-move on dahil sa leakage... Kahit i know I passed, hindi parin madali dahil I'm included in the batch in which the leakage controversy grew... PRC and BON are very narrow minded and stupid in publishing the results of the exam even though there is an existing problem, they just published the results without doing something to resolve the leakage... Does ommiting 120 items enough? How about the competency, it only means that 40% on the necessary compentency was not measured accurately becuase it was ommited... and that they developed a LAME formula to compensate for the 120 items ommited...
Sana kasi, they didn't published results, sana they just proposed a re-take then tapus, at least by that way, hindi tumatagal... Nabibinbin kami mga pumasa... At sure ba sila that all of the 17000+ passed without leakage? I don't think so... Sana kasi bilisan na nila
Stress sa Money at Trabaho...
Siyempre, mahirap ang BUM walang pera at dahil sa boards, walang trabaho... Di maka-move on dahil baka ma-retake... Ang pangit naman na hingi ka ng hingi sa magulang mo...
Nakakainis... So stressed...
Gus2 ko magbakasyon, sa malayo, sa cebu o kaya sa Bohol, sa may beach at may mga stars kapag gabi, malamig ang hangin sa gabi at may araw sa umaga... I want to relax! I need it!
Thursday, August 03, 2006
testing...testing 1, 2,3
