doodles and scribbles
Monday, August 28, 2006
gaining and loosingQue horror!
What is happening to us?! These past few days e medyo hectic ang schedule ko kaya nakakapagod... Pero those things I'm doing is for a cause naman... Nakakapagod nga lang kasi halos buong araw kang nakasabak...
Gaining my self-worth
Even though the fight regarding the leakage is going to quantity, na its like UST against the world, I happy that I am developing a discerning mind sabi ni Ma'am Llanes. It seems that everything that I've learned regarding ethics and theology were inculcated in my mind na... Pero sana, those people sana e will see beyond what they need to see... the Philippines indeed has not the "ideal" set-up for healthcare in comparison with other countries pero sana we make try to make it "ideal" in our own ways... Some people are mad at us Thomasian for the things we're doing pero I hope that they'll hear our side first at look beyond what they see and hear...
Loosing some weight
Because of the things happening in the profession, I am somewhat depressed with some people, na its like their values are degrading... Its different from the things I saw when I'm still a student, and i reckoned, this is reality. And because of the activities I have, I can't help but to stay on bed the whole day when I'm not doing something... What I'm doing is to sleep most of the time as not to think of the problems... Its causing me a lot of stress and it affects my mood... Kaya ayun, kakatulog e pamapayat because, by sleeping a lot, I'm not eating meals as well as burining stored fats in my body kaya ayun...
Loosing people
Sad to say but I have to let go of some friends for the meantime for several reasons...
1. Conflict of opinions - This is whats irritating with them because they will ask for advise then if you give it to them, they won't follow it, its oki naman if they won't follow it pero they keep on complaining about things... How many times do I told them to try this advise, but they kept on refusing. the worst part is that, this opinion maybe used against you and then you'll end up starting a heated arguement with them... It's so frustrating! Another thing is that opposing opinions regarding issues etc. They kept on blaming my school for the mess thats happening in the contriversy of the boards well in fact we're just opening to the public the issues they must see... Its oki naman kung civil e pero to some extent e personalan na kaya, Ayun, heated arguement... Might as well avoid having conversations with them para walang gulo.
2. Lack of Trust - I prefer not to be friends with them because they always have doubts with my suggestions and my credibility as their friend. And trust is an essential compnent in friendship. When trust is lost, all the others will follow
Kaya bye bye muna sakanila... Maybe I have to give up on them muna kasi they're not doing any good sa totoo lang... They're just adding an unecessary burden.
Ayun lang naman :)
